There are so many benefits from the regular practice of solitude.

Research Shows: Time to think, more creative, we face our demons, space to unwind to find peace, find our own voice, time to reflect on what we did, released from constant acceptance from others, tend to be more grateful , time to see the little things. 

Must we fight for time alone or are we rude to others or can we still be kind and ask for time alone?

What things could you do to make sure you get the me time you need?

We are all sold the information to seek a partner, company, groups and community involvement.

Are we defective if we find ourselves alone, or better yet do we find ourselves lacking?

What’s missing we ask, what do we all need? We all know how lonely it can be in the company of others.

It’s often necessary to become qualified in this life so would we require that of our companions?

Do you have  unhealthy attachments?

What’s wrong with self reliance?

I say there is a power in the self- actualization of making your own choices and finding time for solitude. 

 Time is on my side, and the deck is stacked in my favor.  Even when I wonder what the heck is going on , things are working out for my good.

Pregnant possibilities it’s all in how you perceive it.

It’s like Jonah in the whale. It’s dark and slimy gross and I am afraid and want out into the light again.

Then I wake and it’s all a dream the sun has risen to a new and glorious day with the most beautiful red streaking across the sky.

Isn’t life grand?

And time seems to stand still, in this moment here in the snow with my faithful dog is eternity. 

  

Alone so long I have become visible 
Give me your heart

Make it real or

Let’s not forget about it.

Looking for sensuality that sizzles.

Every tomorrow ought not to resemble every yesterday 

I am incorrigibly and insatiable 

now a wanderer. 

I am ever curious

I look forward

As memory is a drug I can ill afford

to level off and so take my course and follow it away.

Longing for someone willing to ask me to stay. 

To join me on my way!!!

 

  I searched for a secure future. Answers to questions and solutions to problems. I did not find it. Instead I found that I had created an untethered life. One where I found security in not knowing. This I knew in my mind but it wasn’t until I stepped out an changed my living situation that it became clear that this is the holy way for me. And as I walk through this life that I am becoming stronger and more sure in my weakness and uncertainty.

I find I am sorely disappointed living in a country that professing to be the dream and to protect the people. It’s only certain people who are afforded this protection.

How can we turn a blind eye towards one group of people, women, poor, children, blacks?

When how who can change this?

  
I have a right to be wrong. My mistakes are my own. You have a right to your opinion. It is my decision. I have let you influence my choice for way to long. I have a right to be wrong. I’m breaking free. I have a right to be wrong.  It sure feels good to me. I have a mind of my own. Thanks Joss Stone for these lyrics and song. Why has it taken me so long? I have a right to be wrong. It’s a mis guided protection device that actually weakens the bone. Now is the time to strike out and be free. I have a mind of my own. I have a right to be wrong!!!!!!!

  memories return, some hurts, hang ups and loses remembered. Over eating no control no trust or respect. a constant struggle for my place in this messed up crazy awful lonely wonderful beautiful special world. sometimes it’s all just too much glitter and it’s not all gold.  when you see the pain in others it changes everything for you. oh how I want to go home. turning bound to my lord. the deeper you feel the pain the more joy you can contain. it all come back to you now. in this moment you can create stretch that heart muscle again . 

“Life is life and fun is fun but it’s all so quiet when the goldfish die .” 

 

I just  want to love and be loved. No rules. No list. 

 

  

  I awake with pain and turn over again. We live an learn. We rush about like chickens with our heads cut off but do we still feel the pain. When forced to fly down into it. Level ground I talk to God all the time but I never listen. Now in the silence I am listening. Fixing it takes time forcing it causes blockage. Roll over again in discovery of a new way of doing things. In the future we need to do things better. Clearly you are operating in a different protected way. As you approach the need remember the wings. Learn to fly through fairly essential. 

  Most of our lives we go around saying no, n0, no, no.

Maybe someday you will say 

Yes!!!