Money and your attitude about it is very telling.  Give it away, hold on to it, or not?
I have decided that I have more than enough in every area of my life.  To prove that I have decide to pay it forward.  As I started this experiment I find I get more than I give.  The pure pleasure of giving is expanded my consiousness in this one area.  Thank you for your help universe, higher power, God.
I give all to you and trust in Life.

June 2014 Unbounded

I’m hundreds of miles from you,
on another continet, haven’t seen you in couple weeks, and before that more than a year.
Yet when I wake I feel you in my room with me, protecting me, loving me.
As I gaze out the large window I spot all red laundry drying on a line.
All signs point to infinite patterns of completion.  Some simple some elaborate.
A life no bigger than me, this time will see that expand.
A red bra and light bouncing off of me.  Heat and a feeling of freedom walking down the street.
I can be anywhere! I am fearless because I trust in your power not my own.
Roof top upon rooftop and God winking at me through a red bra flapping on a clothes line.

A message mixed with the warmth and love of those I have known and those I will know.

Right in the center of Rome. Right in the center of you! God’s Peace.

June 2014
How does one have hope, yet no expectations?
I wonder why, am I a complex woman?
Is my rebellion simply obstination to obedience?
Is just a desire to live life fully?
My goal for the summer is to;
Take a bite out of the ass of Life and drag it towards me.
Then I realize that I can see none of this separate from God.
I am as he made me!

Canada 2014

Had dinner the other night with a friend who is fast becoming an ole friend.  I love that when that happens.  As we talked they share words of wisdom.  That we must trust life, and lean into it.
That we must surrender to love and life.  I love that!  I struggle to control and direct my life. I learn a truth and then I forget to remember.  Thanks for the reminder my friend.

I spent many sleepless nights and days dreaming remembering troubled interludes where my lover, mother, child was stranded without a ride needing my help. Somewhere on a lonely highway in some crowded lonely truck stop or abandon city street, Junk cars, barking dogs, and honking horns. I would spend days searching elevators or empty rooms for you. Waited in darken hallways, with glimpses of shadows on the walls. With no hope of finding my way out. Stuck again inside lost and doomed.  When all along you we’re there waiting for me!  To find you all I had to do was turn around and there was a door. I could easily walk through. Instead strangely I found comfort in a cage of darkness. Lovely and deep we sleep protected by the comfort of each other. Our loneliness at bay for now maybe forever? Want to feel the depth of that darkness. It has a powerful pull. A dream a hope a reality of now or of the future. Will I give myself freely or restrict myself from view?  When the time is right the place the person I will know it. I can trust myself. I sense I can feel it. Just keep walking towards what you want. Lift step plant, again lift step plant. With no other thought but the joy of walking.